Wednesday, April 30
Leakages;
Misery,
After tutorials, I followed the girls to the library. As I was there, I saw a very familiar woman and yes, it’s Hafiz’ mother. I was a bit unsure if it was his mom but luckily, she remembers me. & yes, meet up with Hafiz himself and some of his classmates. After almost 2 weeks in school, I finally met him. I believe, Temasek Polytechnic isn’t that huge but it’s difficult to find the people you wish to meet. That’s the sad case. I followed them to the ez-link card collection centre. & finally I met Shahul in school also. As I said, it’s tough to meet people though you might think Temasek Polytechnic is small.
& after that, I felt weak. Don’t ask me why. I felt like my legs are trembling for no good reason. But I think I know why, hee (: Hint Hint!
DANCE AUDITION ((:
As I said, I sign up for the modern dance and again guess what funny incident that happened to me? Modern dance isn’t the modern dance I or any of you may think it is. Like come on, it’s more of BALLET!!
So I did turn up for the audition, the instructor teaches us the simple steps and had we rehearse for like 5 minutes only. We’re group into groups of 8 and have to perform the steps and freestyle. Everything turn out okay but not that perfect I think! And if I got selected, I don’t think I want it after all. Don’t know why but I hate ballet for sure. Never have you guys wanted to know that I actually quit ballet before because I can’t do the splits!* DON’T LAUGH!* & if I were to join this modern dance, then I’m dumb! Don’t you think so?
Ganesh (:
& i hate continuous coughing. It hurts terribly much. Anyone know what's the cure besides medicine which is useless?
& not that Benedictus watever it's called in Shakespeare.
Take care love.
Early bird,

So if you have anything important to talk to me, you can go online before that time or message me. That’s an easier way of communication.
But not to worry, I will be back to my old routine when the time comes but for sure, not now.
Cheers people.
take care love.
Tuesday, April 29
Bye- Worry.
Oh yes, that’s how I felt recently.
It’s only less than 2 weeks in school but I’m feeling worried that I would not do well for most of the subjects as it seems difficult to me. I’m not pretty sure why and what has causes me to be in this situation.
Is it because I’m not paying attention?
- Which I doubt so.
Is it because I’m slacking and purely wasting time?
- Oh ok, I felt guilty somehow.
Is it because everything is new to me and I have to adapt with the new poly life?
- Perhaps, yes.
Or is it because some other problems?
- I wonder.
*Pondering over this for one nite’*
Oh dear, this uneasiness!
So, I woke up today morning thinking of going for my Quran lesson but Ammi told me that ustazah( teacher) have somethings to do.
& yes, I continued my sleeping. As I said I felt guilty, I woke up around 11pm to do my tutorials, online quizzes and yes, my own notes! No choice but to do all that so that I felt satisfied of myself. & now, finally I don’t felt worried at all! Yeay! & I think those subjects are not that tough at all. I could manage it, after all.
I’ve been a good girl today and I certainly think that my Tuesday was spent wisely! * Give a clap!* ((:
love love !
Hint:Surya.
take care love.
Sunday, April 27
Hint: Surya.
I don’t know but I think I’ve fallen for you. That charm, smile and charisma you posses are simply attracting me. I have SUPER BIG CELEBRITY CRUSH on you! That simply explains why I never miss watching every movie that you act.
Okay scrap that. I guess people might feel disgusted or perhaps thinking I’m insane? Ha-ha, yeah I know he’s married!
Oh dear, how could he.
Suttum Vizhi sudare
Miracle !
Had my tutorials done and yes, I’m a neat girl now okay. I did some packing and filing to my notes. Didn’t want to be messy like how I use to be in secondary school!
Clean the house and here I am waiting for my donuts!
Mr Dearest.
1. The more I try to forget you, the more I miss you.
2. The more I try to avoid you, the more I see you.
3. The more I try to hate you, the more I love you.
& sometimes, when I thought I found you, I lost myself.
& sometimes, what I had wished for will never come true.
& sometimes, confession is meant to be secret.
You seems perfect to me. I can’t find any flaws in you.
Your presence kept me smiling,
I wonder how you captured my heart when others fail to.
But sometimes,
I felt that I don’t exist in your life.
My presence, it seems not to be appreciated at all.
Is it because your busy or
You seem careless about me?
Only god knows why.
Take care love.
LOVE,
ZUBEIDAA
Saturday, April 26
SWARNAM (:
Okay, let’s skipped the part I was pissed of waiting for Dee Ayesha to dress up.

So, yeah, Swarnam isn’t that bad. I think it’s awesome (: Ha-ha, though I don’t really understand tamil. But, surprisingly, we do understand certain words that they say and yes, the story line. No subtitles needed! The dance and the act, perfect da’. &
Shahul, I got to comment that your production is superb and Ha-ha, your dance. Err, I think it’s cute? & it's my first time hearing you speak Tamil!
Deera and I couldn’t stop imitating his dance moves.
Oh well, pictures shall be uploaded soon (:
take care love.
Human folly.
But at times, never take advantage of my kindness.
Ok skipped that, I have to say that I love my dad! I love Abah! Yeay! He agrees to buy me a laptop (: despite many people objecting to it. Oh well, I’m such a spoilt brat! Thank you :D
& yes, I love family dinner. That’s when we got really bonded!
Hey, rewind everything back. Didn’t I mention that my class had a lunch gathering today? Oh well, I forgot. So, basically everyone headed to Mac Donalds near TP to have our lunch and surprisingly the SLs bought a cake for 3 of my classmates. I didn’t even know that it was their birthday! Ha-ha, how dumb.
Another 2 incident of my dumb-ness.
Firstly, i didnt bring along CDs for Irfan and Heider.
Secondly, i forgot that i have to attend the Communication Skill tutorial today. And upon attending the class, everyone has to bring an article for some project overview thingy. I ran to my school Cheers to buy a newpaper and even read up about the article that i have to present. & thank you to my lecturer, we ended up not doing the assignment for dont know what reason. Damn, waste money and effort ! & now, the newpaper is missing and i think i left it in ITAS!
Oh, screw that! My bed is calling me so nites (:
take care love.
Thursday, April 24
Oh yes, school has been fun today! Who cares if I’m lack of girlfriends in school? I do have plenty of boyfriends (: They’re wonderful people I can say, despite just knowing them for a day. Only had 2 hours of lecture and headed down to ITAS to meet the boys. Okay, later i accompanied the boys to some sports shops since Heider wanted to get himself a pair of shoe for today’s street soccer. & yes, I did follow them for their street soccer thingy. Hah, you guess it right! I’m bored though since all the boys are out to play. We had our dinner at KFC. Mind you, that was my breakfast cum lunch and dinner. I don’t want to eat as you all know I’m a slow eater, hee :D & guys hope all of you get well soon! Take care of your health and be strong like me. Ehem!
24 April 2008
Lecture starts at 12:00 and had my early breakfast with the boys, Ct and Zubaidah? Isn’t it freaky to know someone who looks like you, has the same name as you and has the same interest? Oh my, I can’t believe it but almost everyone think that the Zubaidah and I do really look like sisters! I guess we’re twins who are born 10 months apart? Ha-ha, cute uh. Both of us can’t believe it but keep staring to each other. Well, I know her before this and had many incidence where people mistaken me of her. Well, what can I say? This is life and in this world we’re known to have 7 twins and I’ve found one, ha-ha! How lucky.
Well, after lecture was boredom. The girls when around with me signing up for CCAs and oh yes, I join the modern dance and Indian Cultural group. Hope I get into any of it!
take care love.
Tuesday, April 22
Mad woman incident.
Ha-ha it’s a funny scene though.
So here it goes;
Time >21:08:32-
I received a call from a woman and she said (all have been translated to English):
Mad Woman: Adik (small sister) you called Kakak (elder sis)?
Zue’: Which sister? *Thinking that I have only 2 sisters and they don’t call me by that unknown number*
Mad Woman: You call kakak, right?
Zue’: I’m Zubeidaa and I don’t think I know you.
Mad Woman: Then where’s Zakiyah? Don’t you hide her from me (Mind you, the name sounds foreign to me)
Zue’: Sorry, I think you got the wrong number. Bye!
21:09:41- Another call
Mad Woman: Don’t try to lie to me! I know Zakiyah is with you. Don’t you dare lie and say you don’t know me! You stay at Pasir Ris Block 245, right?
Zue’: * BLUR EXPRESSION* I don’t know any Zakiyah and I’m not staying there. I live in 4**! (I hanged up the phone)
21:12:13- Another call
Mad Woman: You better not hid her! *!#@$%^^%*
Zue’: (Hanged up again!)
21:14:49- I was so pissed off that I gave the phone to my dad so that he can settle it better.
Abah: What do you want? Who is Zakiyah? I think you got the wrong person! I’m Zubeidaa’s dad!
Mad Woman: You’re her dad? Good! Your daughter is a tomboy right? She is having an affair with Zakiyah! & now you all hid her in you house right?!
Abah: Astargfiruallahalazim!* Utter his prayers* my daughter isn’t a tomboy and I know my daughter well! I don’t teach them the wrong things!
Mad Woman: Your daughter has sex with Zakiyah! They are working at the same place!
Abah: My daughter doesn’t have the time! She’s not working but schooling!
Mad Woman: Yar, ITE! I know!
Abah: Eh, eh, she’s in polytechnic not ITE! You totally got a wrong person!
& the conversation when on and on. NON-STOP!
Dee Ayesha complains to the police about this matter and yahoo, the woman’s phone line is being traced!
Oh my, this incident is scary. Abah was like questioning me if I ever gave my hand phone number to anyone that I don’t know. Like hello, I’m not those kinds of girls who gave their number that easily unless that person is important to me. So yeah, it teach me a lesson!
However,i think i'm weird because i love entertaining that mad woman though! he-he :D
take care love.
Monday, April 21
1st day- Business life.
Today’s lesson is kindda’ slacking as I only had to attend 1 lecture from 9am-11am. I don’t know why but I seem not bonded with my classmates. Hmm, maybe majority or in fact all of them are Chinese? As I said, I wasn’t being racist or not. But hey, it isn’t fair for me. All the Chinese seems to be together and yes, to them I don’t exist, maybe? Heck la, I don’t give a damn.
Sarah is cute. She said this to me “Oh dear, they are loosing such a gem (me)! They don’t know how precious you are.”
Oh yes, can’t blame them la, Sarah. & stop exaggerating!
So after the lecture, we headed to the library to collect our lecture notes and thank god that I met Vanda! Ha-ha (: Since most of my classmates are going home (*kuai-kuai mah*), I’ve got no choice but to join Vanda and her class! Like at least I made new friends! I MISS CT, badly! Today’s her off day and that’s another reason why I was feeling lonely. You see, many of my friends are either in different school/course, have new friends or in year 2/3! & I can’t possibly call them and ask them out as you never know their hectic timetable! Oh dear, pity me badly. But thank god, I’ve got no class tomorrow! Yeay!
Oh yes, I’ve forgotten to thank Yi ting for accompanying me today after school despite being in a different school as me (Singapore polytechnic). She made the effort to meet me in City Hall as I wanted to buy a notebook for myself. We did hang out at Raffles City Mall’s Starbucks. Thank you so much again, ADIK!
That’s all folks! Boring day I can say~
Take care love.
Saturday, April 19
Memoirs of FOC,

Takecare love.
Girlfren love,

What shall you do when a friend needs you?
Mira,
don’t worry too much about the problem that you face. I know you have a hard time in your studies and you should know that I’m here to help you anytime. I may not remember the subject that well but I can try. This is just a word of advice. Whatever you do, never give up to try and never make yourself stress, that’s all. But if one day you think you can’t do it, it’s not the end! Remember that girlfriend (:
Business Orientation Day 2.
Oh well, I wanted to post about my 2nd day of Orientation. It was the best day ever though I have to reach the auditorium at 8am. All started with the course manager briefing to us about our course and some rules that we have to abide with. We got our course shirt and yes, its yellow again! But never mind, I think I like yellow for now. Hah, weird. Then, we were given time to meet our Care person a.k.a mentor. Well, I’ve got a funny mentor. He gave out our matriculation card, timetable and some important informations. Yessa! My timetable is kindda’ relaxing this semester.
Here’s my timetable:
Monday:
9:00- 11:00- MicrEcon (Lecture)
13:00-16:00- CSA (LAB)
Tuesday:
NO SCHOOL!
Wednesday:
9:00-11:00- B Acc1 (Tutorial)
12:00-14:00- Comm Skill 1 (Tutorial)
Thursday:
9:00-11:00- MicroEcon (Tutorial)
12:00-14:00- Prin Mgt (Lecture)
14:00-15:00- APEL1 (Tutorial)
Friday:
10:00-11:00- CSA (Lecture)
11:00-13:00- Comm Skill 1 (Tutorial)
14:00-16:00- Prin Mgt (Tutorial)
16:00-18:00- B Acc1 (Lecture)
After every things settled, we headed to the Sports Hall and that’s when the war begin between Schools! I love my STORM THE YARD GROUP! Hee, we did so well! Business is again being crown for the Best School, Most Spirited School and The winner for another category. I forgot! YEAHHH!! BUSINESS IS THE BEST! WOHOOO! ~~
Everything ends at 6:30 and I quickly headed home to get myself ready for the JAM N HOP! Everyone else stayed in school but since I wanted to have at least a cold bath, I went home first. And since I forget to bring my towel, I am not able to bathe in my school.
When out from home at 7:45. I almost wanted to go home as I was so frustrated about the bus being late. I hate waiting for buses at night! I just cant wait to get my bike license so that I don’t need to take the bus anymore. Meet up with soo many people during my JAM N HOP! From Kindergarten mates to Primary school mates and Secondary school mates too! Yeah, enjoyed my day dancing and grooving all nite’ long. Sadly, didn’t meet Shahul. Haha, I went to the wrong place! And Sarah, I cant find her. SAD!! But nevermind..
Okay, that’s all actually.
Take care love.
Friday, April 18
PISSED!
Dont ask me why but i'm totally pissed of myself. Yes, i'm dumb! i know. I miss you Mr dear! Only some people know why. So yeah, dont wish to talk about it.
Shit!
TAKE CARE LOVE.
Thursday, April 17
Mr Dear,
I HOPE YOU WOULD NOT FORGET ABOUT OUR LUNCH DATE.
PLEASE NOT DISAPPOINT ME.
BUT BUT, I THINK YOU WOULD.
WOULDN'T YOU?
HMM, ARE YOU STILL ALIVE MR DEAR?
TAKECARE LOVE.
Business Orientation.
Meet a lot of new friends in my course. Basically, they are my new course mates but we’re of the different classes. Oh yeah, my class is 1B09!!! BSG have 23 classes in total. Yep, big cohort and that means a HUGE competition. Stupid~ ok, cut that.
My NPCC junior, Kah Wee, is in the same class as me. Thank god, at least I know someone. Love love the ice breaking games! Yeay! got to do some sexy dance with my favorite junior, Aaron. & as enthu as I am, did some games to represent the girls team. Woo, BATTLE OF THE SEXES!
And duh, the girls will always win!
&& oh yaaaaa, I love TP mass dancing! Can’t help it but keep dancing! Shaking every parts of me. Hee, sounds wrong though.
Tomorrow is going to be a tiring day for everyone. It’s the challenge between schools. Business has been the winner for 3 consecutive years and hopefully, we made it this year again! I’m so anticipated and didn’t I say that I join the “Business Stomp The Yard Group??” Cool shit!
Hopefully Business will win the war again this time! *FINGERS CROSSED!*
take care love.
Wednesday, April 16
Waxed.











Okay, this was taken by force. I wasnt wearing make-up :(
take care love.
Only god Knows.
So yes, here goes:





















Didn’t able to make it for cycling today afternoon so I decided to meet up with my group, Fyrhto, for dinner. I only had a bowl of Mango Iced Jelly with longan. Yummy! Yes, Ct and me gotta’ rush for home. Yeay, we had a long conversation thru’ out the bus ride. Oh my, never knew we can get that close? I did cried for some reason. Hmm, actually u guessed it. Yeah, my late beloved mummy Nachak. I love her so much that I’ve never love anybody more then her.
Only god knows how much I love her.
Only god knows how significant this human being is to my life.
Only god knows why I hate to love.
Only god knows how much pain I’ve went thru’ living in this world without her.
Only god knows the reason I’m living.
Only god knows how poignant the memories I had with her.
ONLY GOD KNOWS!
Tuesday, April 15
Missing you?
Monday, April 14
Looks.
Looks can be deceiving, I swear! To some, maybe they might think that I look like a bitch and I act like one too. Funny though but there is this new friend of mine whom I met like 3 days ago, Elinur, who is way younger then me, actually says something that awed me. Like totally, she’s great at observing people in an out. Yeah, we shared some things together. Mostly, my past and all. Honestly, she thought that I’m a BITCH? Or maybe some naughty girl? (when she first met me). Not that I look/act like one but the way I dressed up, I think. But funny to hear that she says I’m such a nice girl and people won’t know the real me if they don’t talk/ know about my past. Funny girl though. But she makes me ponder over it. Do I really look like one? And am I really giving that kind of impression to people?
So yeah, it’s all up to the individual to judge that someone. Never come into conclusion as we gotta’ really do some research on it, hee. Not every nice people look decent or unlikable people look indecent.
As there goes a saying “Never judge a book by its cover”
Take care love.
Sunday, April 13
FOC <3
What will you do when you’re at your failure? - GIVE UP?
Yes, that’s the most significant values that I’ve learned from this FRESHMEN ORIENTATION CAMP (FOC)!
Day 1:
Reporting time: 12:00pm, 10 April 2008
On my way to Temasek Polytechnic, I saw Radhi and Shalyn and we went to school together. Trust me, there were so many people there and thank god, we get through the registration fast if not, we can’t join the camp.& thus, I won’t be able to enjoy this wonderful camp! Believe it or not around 200+ people were sent home! & of cause, we’re separated to different groups and my group name is FYRHTO! As friendly as I am, I tried making friends with some of them. The first was CT Khairunisa! Okay, the cool thing is that she’s my junior in Loyang Primary School and we get so bonded thru’ out the 3 days in camp! Everyone is so friendly and yes, I love my group!
Cheer session- Ice breaking game- Flag Deco’& Performance nite’- Bidding game- Dinner- Station games.
Disappointedly, we got the last! I just can’t believe it because our sub-empire (Fyrhtrox) played so well during the station games and they even congratulate us for being the best kind!
Ok, just cut that! Later we had our sleeping time. Didn’t able to sleep, I decided to bring my new cliques to meet up with Irfan Khan and gang! The TIMUN GANG! (Irfan Khan, Farid (RED), Zul, Jamil and Roy (Cina Celup Melayu(CCM),Zack and Lan) Ha-ha. We had funny conversation and made our way to the Engineering School since they wanted to eat. 4:00 a.m we slept and woke up at 5:00 to bathe since we wanted to get the toilets first!
Day 2:
Morning Physical Training- Breakfast- Games- Preparation of Performance nite’- Mass Dancing- Jam& Hop!
Today is kindda a disappointing day for some of us. We didn’t really make it during the performance nite’! The GLs were so nice and called us out and asked why we were crying. I was so touched when they actually cried together with us. Thanks GLs I love you people! Mass Dancing and Jam& Hop help me stop thinking of the embarrassment day. We dance all nite, babey! WOOO~
& guess what? Everyone snored thru’ out the early nite as our bodies were physically fatigue! Ha-ha
& yes, yet again I kept thinking of my group being the last. How sad,
Day 3:
Today we had the most fantabulous day of our lives! SPLASH!!- Yes, it’s the water games day! We’re given 10 stations to complete and each station is related to water games. Yes, we’re just enjoying ourselves and it seems that we’re in the Wild Wild Wet! Those games makes us earned a lot of points! My sub-empire, Fyrhtrox, was so bonded! & you know the beautiful pond in Temasek Poly? Yes, we went swimming in there! And like duh, we’re all drenched!
Gerek to gedegak!
& last but not least, we had the ceremony that we have been waiting for. WHICH EMPIRE IS THE BEST? Everyone was just depressed. You can’t imagine how I was awed when they announced another group name instead of ours for the 5th placing? I cried! We were all the way last and winning a 3rd placing is something that we cant believe it! Most of us cried and this really showed that perseverance and determination thru’ out the camp really made us get the 3rd placing! It’s a miracle and blessing that we should thank god for.
take care love.
Thursday, April 10
FOC (:
Wednesday, April 9
Happy B'dae NCL! (:
After which, we headed home and I cooked for her Maggie since she requested it. Yummy! It’s ultra-spicy as I added 3 CHILLI PADI into per bowl. As usual, I slacked at home all day.
I called up Vanessa about Ngo Chung Lim’s birthday party. & taa-daa, we do had fun just now. Meeting ups with my old classmates and teacher was the best! Yeah, didn’t spend that much time there.
By the way Ncl, thanks for the nice ice cream cake! & yes, HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY, BRO! (: You people may have forgotten that NCL is actually my Chinese Best Boyfriend cum Brother! May all your dreams come true and all the best for future. Pictures will be uploaded soon!
Mira darling called me and we had a very long conversation till midnite. I talked to her about the Camp Kitlist and stuffs. Oh god, I just hope during my camp days, there won’t be any water sports or anything related to water. ARRGG! Yeah, you should know that I’m afraid of depths. Sheesh, please don’t laugh! The last time I had was Kayaking during my NPCC days and I shall hope that will be my last and never will I try to do it again.Gosh! Whatever and hoping NO water sports, PLEASE GOD!!
take care love.
Monday, April 7
Unfortunately.
You may wonder why did I actually blog about this. It’s for a simple reason.
Yeah, I was on my way to my daily Quran lessons when I actually meet up with my cousin brother. Hmm, well, he isn’t like the other people who have everything. I mean he was born mute! God is fair enough. His late mother is my beloved aunty who left me few years ago. Yes, she’s the one who brought me up since young and I did spent most of my time with my cousin brother, Abang Bobo. Since I moved house in Pasir Ris, I didn’t really meet up with him. & yes, I miss him so dearly.
Oh gosh, I can’t imagine looking at his state now. He’s merely very independent man, I can say. His mom left him earlier and his dad is sick now. & yeah, I saw him loitering around. I can’t bare looking at him and yes as usual, I held some money so that he can have his breakfast just now.
What I have done today, put a smile on my face. Yeah, I love him as much I love his mom. & I hope that Mami Nachak is looking down and see that her “daughter” which is me do care about her precious child still.& hope she will not worry about her child anymore because I will do the responsibility.
So think people, what if you have siblings like them? And what will you do if you have such a child? These people need our guidance and love! So do appreciate what has god given to you.
Okay enough of this lecturing part. Back to my days spent:
Didn’t do anything much. Just blog hopping, and a short nap. All thanks to my so no-energy- cum fasting day!
& yes, Alex called to pester me. Ha-ha! Sorry Alexy, I seriously can’t make it this Friday. I can’t sacrifice my camp days. Please understand me! And I know, you’re leaving very soon and you should know, I will surely miss you! Aww, see, I’m sweet as ever.
After which, I break my fast, bought some things from the shop below and headed to Deera’s house to get my printed consent form for the camp this week.
Yeay! I can’t wait for the camp and hopefully I will meet new and great friends! *WISHING*
take care love.
Sunday, April 6
Photoshoot,BHG.
The photographers love us and kept taking our pictures non-stop. Everything is done in the public. The makeover, the hairdo and even the photo shoots! Yes, it’s embarrassing though, but we aced it thru’. Like who cares if anyone is watching us (:
Positive and model mindset! He-he! The make-up artist and photographers even told us to join the modeling agencies and be the cover girl. They meant that we should become a face model since we’re not qualified, thanks to out heights! Hmm, I shall consider it. Just have to see what’s there god has stored for me.
Here are the photos taken by our own self:
Yeay! Check out our photographs at BHG,Century Square! Yes, they display our photographs there as the nominess (: & I cant wait for the photographs to be sent to our house and i won't forget to upload it here! YEAY!
takecare love.
CAT FIT,
Didn’t really understand my feelings though. Ambivalent, I can say.
Now, I’m over it, totally! I shall just ignore it just like how he did. Well, you knew it so just admit it. BYE!
P/s: Shut up and die, love!
050408.
Nice couple! hehe :)
He bought those roses for her !
So sweet lah both of you~
Manhunt 2008! haha. ROFL( ROLL ON the FLOOR LAUGHING)!
We had our photo before going home.
Headed to Century Square for a make over. Darn, i forget my wallet so yeah we change the day of appointment to tomorrow, 060408. So yeah, we had Coffee Bean,Caramel Ice blend!
Dee Ayesha &my beautiful snap (: Good photography.
Nah,i look dumb!
Zyedan Shah came over for KFC's dinner!
He loves his big nose and try showing it off!
I look dumb again! My cadet eating chicken during his drill session. Bad boy!
Take care love.


