Bday Gay.

29 June 2008/Sunday
HAPPY BDAE CAST ((:
May all your wishes come true
and may god bless you always.
Though you’re a year older and MAYBE white hairs are growing fast,
You’re still that petite lil’ boy!
Enjoysss!

I love yesterday. Shopping spree! Woooooo~
Firstly, I went over to Bugis to collect my prize worth of $150 Bonjouis brand makeup and then headed to Tampines Mall to do some shopping. As usual, Body Shop is loved! Perfumes and more makeup set were bought from that shop! Mango was next. 4 different kinds of tops! I love it terribly. He-he, I forced Dee Noreen to pamper me today. Thank you dear sister! I love you though you can be a pain in my ass, LOL!

Dinner in Mac Donalds. Burp! I’m full. Ok, I’m dead. Byee Dears ((:
oh stop, pictures rolling..

Mc D ((:

Dee Ayesha& her bestie,Anne May.

i love that makeup! Thanks bodyshop.Wooo~

Dan Shah

cute uh..

He poses just like me! LOL

Pole dancing?

His a naughty boy now.

OMG! cute cute

& his irritating. i swear!

take care love.

Tagged.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.& replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.

These people must state who they were tagged by& cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

Tagged by: CT khairunissa ((:

1. If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?

* I will only have emotionally issues within me. I barely showed it out.

2. If you have a dream to come true, what will it be?

* Accomplish most of what i've wished for and die, peacefully in my prayers.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?

* Firstly, will i get married? & if i do, i love it by the sea ((:

No, that wont happen,i think.

4. Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?

* I was in that state. But now, it's all cleared.

5. What's your ideal love like?

* Someone like my gay bestfriend, i wish.

Do you have any clone of yourself?

Please introduce,LOL!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

* Now i think, being loved is more blessed. You will never be lack of love from anyone ((:

7. How long do you willing to wait for someone you really love?

* I'm leaving all this to god.

He knows better then me.

8. If the person that you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?

* I did move on. Pointless of waiting/ breaking them up. Hello? Please dont be a mean-os!

9. Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?

* Mostly everything.

But gays make me laugh.

10. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

*If god wills, i wish by then i'm a successful career woman and a family that completes my life. Amin (:

11. Who are currently most important people in your life?

* Late mummy, family,Jilbab rangers(girlfriends),Castillo,CT and ICG.

12. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

* She's an angel that god have sent to me who are willing to share her laughters! (:

13. Would you rather be single& rich or married and poor?

* Can i not choose any options?

14. What's the first thing you do every morning?

* Utter a prayer to thank god for saving my life from my sleep bcos you never know, tomorrow may not be..

15. Would you give all you have in a relationship?

* Anything by law.

16. If you fall in love with 2 person simultaneously, who would you pick?

* Usually i dont choose any. But now, i guess i shall pick the one who loves me too. That's more wonderful (:

17. What type of friends do you like?

* The ones that understand me in and out, those who willing to share their tears with me, those

who laugh at my silly jokes, those who lend their listening ear and shoulder to cry upon and yes, i love you friends (: I'm sure you know who i've mention.

18. Do you have a pet?

* I'm sorry, i couldnt. I've came to realise that the poor animal will die if i'm their owner.

19. What do you think about friends?

* Friends come and go. Only a few will stay behind with you and willing to share everything together.

20. How does it feels like when someone you love left you?

* Its heart-wrenching. That's a reason why i refuse to love.

21. Are you smart?

* I'm dumb if i'm compared to my classmates.

22. Are you having a friend relationship problem?

* It seems like. We're not been talking. & i'm sorry, i think its my fault.

Forgive me dear friend?

Tagged: Aziya, Eyra,Sarah,ST,Vanda,Winifred,Hazriana& anyone?

take care love.

I miss her.

Today seems different to me. I’m just not who I am.
Her presence in my dream causes me to tear.
Badly, I can say.
But nobody notice.

Mummy,

you came into my dream.
Confessing the love you have for me.
Telling me how much you miss me.
Thank you so much for passing by.
Like at least, I know someone I love
Do miss and care for me still.
Though I know, you are gone permanently,
I will never forget everything about you.
You’re that kind soul who loves me dearly.
May you be happy in heaven ((:

She's in red, Zalma Nachak Bte M.N Ahamed.

Ammi and Abah is the furthest right (:

What further disappointment I should bear now?
Looking at my Principle of Management result,
I can barely survive in such a smart ass class.
I’m nothing as compared to them.
No, I do pass that subject.
But you see, it isn’t something that I expected to get nor
have I wished to get lower than some of my classmates.
It’s a great disappointment, I can say.
Its not an A grade, that' the problem now.

This creates disturbance in my mind.
I can’t even concentrate during my accounts lecture.
& now, I’m totally lost.
I couldn’t understand that bloody chapter!

I hate myself. I’m dumb :(

take care love.

Endings?

Everything seems dull and monotonous.
I have accepted that it’s the end of everything.
Perhaps this will continue.
But till when?
Forever?

I swear life for me wouldn’t be this colorful without the Indians.
Practically, I got to thanks Cast for the listening ear.
He helps me a lot ((:
Love you, gay!
& some other girlfriends namely Maha and Nelvin.
For being that understanding.
I really appreciate it all.
Love you people truck loads! (:

Academic days are getting hectic each day
with every tutorials/ assignments and projects that keeps piling.
I’ve receive my Business Accounting result.
I can say its not that bad
but kind of depressing ( 34.5/45[B+] ).
Mathematics isn’t my weakest link, you see.
Well, I’m grateful to god for such a blessing.
2 more results to go.
Blessings ((:

take care love.

Guys sux.

What I felt earlier on was indeed the truth. Guys can just be a pain in your ass. I swear, they’re the king of liars. For once, they said they’re over that girl but no, they lied. How could I still believe in them? Or perhaps, he’s making up a story. Well, only god knows.

Gays are in trend,people!

Please congratulate me for getting over him! Like finally. No regrets but happiness in me ((:
Woooo, I’m a happy girl =D
Castillo is a happy gay too. He got a bloody green PSP! & now, he’s showing it of to me. Thanks uh. LOL, * jk da*

Heck about the guy thingy. Let’s talk about today!
INDIANs are the coolest people yet living ((:
Cam-whoring with such people is awesome! Like seriously.Check out the photos taken, Enjoys

Indian Girls ((:

Maha.Kasturi.Shalini.Zalikha.Alisa.Zue'.Nelvin.Wafah.Dineesha.Puvanesh
Zalikhaaa

Cast& Zalikha
Zalikha& Nelvin darling..

Pretty ladyy, Alisa

The whites.

Dineesha& Nelvin. The Hindis.

Rostyy, u look real gay! Wooooo~

The msn survivors! more cca points, pleaseeee((:

Rosty&Nelvin. Hindis too

Exorticism of Arun the Kummi

i seriously duno whats going on.

hmm, there is a story behind this! Ponna Bad!

Arun n his usual smile, trade mark?

OMG! he thinks he looks like Mickey Mouse!! ARGG! i was laughing my head out that time!

Rosttyyy! Argg

He loves to destroy the pic. Damn youu!

Wooo, we're good dancers. Hmmm..

that isnt candid!

Zue': " Cast! stop taking pics with me! I know i'm popular uh, kepo! LOL"

Rosty immitating Sandy Boo( Senthilan)

The bestest gay in the world! Wooooo~

DEI!

the pimp?? LOL, CMI

Cast so cute. Look like the Puss In Boots (Shrek!) LOL

woops, i know you hated cats forever.

Check out this. This is VINTAGE! wooo~

His immitating puvanesh, LOL! "Pain, Pain pain,pain!"

take care love.

Mixed Emotions.

It sucks when you couldn’t really understand your own feelings at times. It was just a sudden change in you that you do not seem to be aware of.

Have you ever felt really low about yourself?
Have you ever felt dumb of not doing well in what you are supposed to be good at?
Have you ever felt really hopeless?
Have you ever felt useless?
Have you ever felt that you have been irritated enough?
Have you ever felt that you’re being used?
Have you ever felt you’re being targeted for no clear reason?
Have you ever felt the urge to kill someone?
Have you ever felt that you have a lot to accomplish in life but yet the time given is not enough?
Have you ever felt being left by your loved ones?
Have you ever known that you have been hurting me even more though you’ not aware?

That’s exactly what I felt today. Perplexed and piled with mixed emotions that are uncontrollable.
Sitting alone and thinking can just cause me to be in such a state where nobody wishes to see. Those questions make me ponder and giving the impression that I’m the cause for all this unsolved issues within me.

Worst still. These erupted feelings in me can just let me be in a dilemma state.
I want to be away from others. Is that even possible? I doubt so.

Iterriblymissestherealyou ((:
take care love.

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ICG CAMP:

Itas& Street soccer.
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takecare love.