Perseverance.

Believe it or not, I almost give up my fast today. Today is like the worst day I have ever gone through in my life. Without having a proper sleep, I woke up at 8 in the morning to get myself ready to Apsara Asia’s dance studio to meet the choreographer. Then later on walk all the way to Arab Street and back to the dance school just to get our costume materials. Once reached, we’re taught some difficult dance steps that cause me to pant and quench in thirst. It’s almost 4 in the afternoon and another 3 hours to go and I’m in the verge to give up! And I swear, her well-trained dancers are really superb! I was awed by their performance!

Worst still, we have to walk all the way to the Tekka market to collect my Hari raya costume that I went to sew. Such a bad luck day, my expensive yet pretty slippers broke! I’ve got no choice but to buy a new pair. After all, it’s all because of laughing at poor Deneshwaran S/O Visanathan when he broke his slippers! Ha-Ha!
After some mini shopping with Zalikha, we slacked at the food place with the rest of the dancers. And again, I almost give up. The time just passed so slowly and I guess due to the tiredness in me, I got too high! Ha-Ha! But today’s recommended drinks are awesome! I simply love the lime juice! ((:
And so it sums up my dreadful day where god is really testing my patience. I’m totally happy because I persevered and didn’t give up! I swear I love Zubeidaa, haha!

take care love.

Random-ing.

OH DEAR, DO YOU BELIEVE IF I SAID THAT THE LITTLE BABY IN THE FIRST PICTURE IS ME? HA-HA! LOOK, WE'RE ALL GROWN UP KIDS! ((:

Anyways, that's my real sister, Dee Ayesha, Ammi and Abah.

All have grown a little older, sadly.

okay, people. This is really random!
haha

takecare love.

No Raya, please?

4 DAYS TO GO.
I don’t want to celebrate. The feeling is just suck when you couldn’t celebrate this very special day for the Muslims together with the one you love. I don’t want to go her house and not being able to meet her, kiss her, hug her and get her blessing or forgiveness. I just want her presence! It seems like it has been 4 years since I celebrate this festive occasion without her. Nobody seems to know how I felt! For now, what I always do is to pray for her and may she always be resting in peace. I really wish she come into my dream again like she always did because I know she knows that I really miss her so.
Mummy, I wish I could visit you. Now how I wish I’ve got my own license so I could just ride myself to the graveyard. And I really wish you’re there when I go to your house so I could at least feel your presence.
Okay, I shall stop getting all emotional.
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Oh well, I should say that I’m totally not having any holidays? Reason being I’m always going to school since morning till evening for dance practices. Oh just pray that we didn’t waste any time nor effort by at least winning the competition.
*FINGER CROSSED* Oh well, I swear, I almost give up, people. Sorry!

take care love.

break ups?

Maybe this is the month of breaking up?
I swear, i fear for the worst from the people around me.
I dont wish to see tragic at this moment.
I dont wish to feel the pain they're in.
I dont wish to see them in pain and losing someone dear.
But you people know, i'm here to listen.

For all that happen, there is always a reason.
No matter what, cherish your lovedones.

anyways, Happy Birthday Nelvin and Mommy Jenab ((:
May god bless you no matter where you are.


take care love.

Mommy's birthday.

HAPPY 54th BIRTHDAY AMMI!
MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU ALWAYS ((:

TAKE CARE LOVE.

Birthday boy ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARUN!
MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS ((:
MAY THE SURPRISE MAKE YOUR DAY HAPPY!
SEOUL GARDEN ((:

P/s: I'm too tired and i shall just let the pictures rolling!

I swear, this cake is damn nice! credit goes to Dineesha!

Aww, a birthday kiss.

He was appaled! look at his face..

Prettyy cake!

Cutting the cake..

FEEDING TIME!

Arun and Puvan <3

Arun& Dineesha

Baby Denesh and his pacifier(cake)!

Arun& Raj

Arun& Roshan

Arun& Revathi

Arun& Castillo

Arun& me

My dance partner, Denesh ((:

Requested by Denesh.

He look like a beggar. sorry dude!

This is really sweet ((:

Lemon to Orange buddy!

i love his earring that sparkles!

BAHAHAHAHAHAA! mad cow !

Arun felt bloated!

Look at the amount of food we ate???!

Birthday boy got drunk!

EVIDENCE!

NICEEEE!

the birthday boyyyy, Arun ((:

OMG! this is hilarious! hahaha!

Castillo is taller! haha

The boyyss

the gorgeous girlss ((:

Everyone likes this picture. even me!

this is gay club. WELCOME!

i love these boys! Castillo Bestie and Denesh baby ((:

Castilloooo and Zueeee

Everyone that make it possible!

take care love.

Mathematics love (:

More than a year? Oh yes, it has been that long since I last studied Mathematics in school. And now, I’m expected to teach my neighbour since he really needs help in his studies. Well, I guess I got to start practicing before he bombarded me with questions. To think of it, I’ve got no confidence in teaching him Mathematics. It’s not that I don’t know how to solve it but is just that the confidence isn’t there yet and I rather teach someone Additional Mathematics instead.

Due to getting a B3 for my Mathematics, it further discourages me from teaching. You never know how much hope I have in my Mathematics. Perhaps only god and my dearest teacher know me better.
But now, I’m certainly into teaching him after so much of thinking. I just sympathies him and his family right now. His dad just passed away and his mom is really working hard to earn a little more for them and they don’t have enough to even fork out money for his tuition. What a karma, isn’t it? I swear I almost tear when his mom asked me to teach her son. Can you imagine how stuck I am and I just need to agree to her? After all, I’m doing a voluntary work and I’m certainly very sincere about it. Perhaps I could make him achieve something that I couldn’t in my past? Or maybe I could upgrade myself better and make a difference in someone’s life? That sounds better!
Sooo, I shall start doing something that I love best back then! Chow Chin chow! ((:
take care love.

hair mechanics.

Which hair style do I look better with?

I seriously need to do something to my hair. I’m stuck between straight or curly hair. Any suggestions, people?
Basically, I’m bored with my hair now, ha-ha! It doesn’t seem perfect anymore and I’ve got limited kind of hair style to do with straight hair. Further more, my poor hair will be expose to different kind of hair spray due to some photo shoots and might get spoilt. Not that it doesn’t get spoilt, it does. So, I decided to curl it back like how it uses to be naturally. But yet again, I’m worried that I’ve to look a little older and a little more time spent to maintain it. You see, I’m stuck!

I’ve got to get feedbacks from those who have seen my hair naturally and the straighten ones. Which do you think suits me best? I seriously need a new hair cut especially for the upcoming festive season and maybe due to school reopening soon? Ha-ha! I need help, urgently ((:
takecare love.

blessed,

Thank god! I did pretty well for my semester exam and that means I don’t even need to come back for any supplementary papers. Even though it wasn’t something that I expected, I really think I need to at least be thankful. And next time, I better make my expectation acceptable and not something unachievable.
I’m not happy for some reason. No, not about my result but it was something else.
No matter what, nobody should give up! ((:

I love my dad because he permits me to sleepover in school without any consent form or calling the teacher in-charged! He trusted me a lot and I’m touched. And I wouldn’t want to take advantage of him (:
takecare love.

Over the limit.

At times, there is always a limit to everything. You can’t possibly think you’re someone that everyone has to abide to. At least listen up to what we wish to voice out and so it will lessen the tension among us.
I can’t handle such an attitude anymore. As I said, everything has a limit and when it gets overboard, you can simply hurt someone.
Today, how much I control myself it just caused me to tear. Though I was known to be boisterous physically, you can’t expect me to be the same mentally. Whenever I’m angry, it will always result in me crying. It was over the limit and I just can’t put up with such an attitude!
Maybe, you really need to work out on your attitude, girl.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIRA GIRLFRIEND! ((:
LOVE YOU ALWAYS !

TAKE CARE LOVE.

disappointment.

I’m deeply disappointed when I saw it. It just seems impossible to win. Now, I just felt really hopeless and hoping for the best. I just hope we will do it even though there is something that makes it impossible for us to. God, please make it happen for all of us :)

I’m sorry if I kept complaining.
After all, I wanted the best.
But it seems impossible now.

Let's do it together and may luck be with us!

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX! May god bless you.

please come back Singapore, gay. Ha-Ha!

Sexy Alexy is missed ((:

takecare love.

3rd day.

Bum chika bum, bole bum chika bum bum,
Bum chika bum bole bum bum bum!

Okay, I'm sorry but i'm being really random here.I’m definitely bored right now. Life has been so routine and somewhat I’m bored with it. I want to go out with girlfriends, badly!

Today is the 3rd day of ramadhan and I just love every feeling of it. Though I got physically fatigue due to the dance practice, somewhat I endure since I’ve got no choice. I'm so immune to it since I've been through worst than this during my NPCC days.

I love Ammi for cooking spaghetti when I told her that I’m craving for that! & I just love the foods that are dined on the table everyday! For now, I’m looking forward for more, yeay!

Oh ya, I’ve fallen for 2 new actors from the movie Singh is Kinng! I didn’t really believe that one of them acted in the Telegu/Tamil movie before. So here are their hot pictures.

Sudhanshu Pandey

Sonu sood

takecare love.

Salam Ramadhan (:

Happy Ramadhan to all and may this month of inspiration filled with iman and taqwa. May Allah bless you and your entire family during this month as well as the rest of the year. AMIN (:

Today marks the first day of Ramadhan (fasting month). I’m delightful as today has come. This year’s fasting month is really different for me because I’ve got many sacrifices to give. Apart from last year where I have to sacrifice my time thoroughly on O levels, this year most of the time is spent on dance practices.

Well, my first day of fasting month is really testing me physically and mentally. Firstly, as I always thought I would wake up early after my morning breakfast (sahur), it just doesn’t happen. I woke up an hour later and got so tensed when the bloody bus took around 20 minutes to arrive. Thank god, I wasn’t really that late! The long hours of dance practice isn’t that bad as I tried to bear with it. But sadly, I couldn’t control myself with the vulgarities. It just flew from my mouth like idioms! Oh shucks, i just got so use to it. When some of them utter some vulgarities, I couldn’t help it but to utter it in my mind and so it really seems impossible for me now! Oh god, help me with that.
After such tiring practices, I headed home for break fast. Despite being physically fatigue, can you imagine how long I actually waited for the bus? Almost up to 45 mins! You would probably imagine how my face would be but as it is the fasting month, I controlled myself and acted normal. And again, some people are really inconsiderate to push me as they wanted to prevent me from boarding the bus first. He is just being selfish! Can’t he be a gentleman and gave me the chance to board the bus so I won’t be late to break my fast? Wah, my blood just boils up! But again, I tried controlling myself. I swear I couldn’t wait to get my bike license and never wish to board the bus in that kind of peak hour again.
Today, god really tests my patience. And I’m really happy that I passed it! Praying is the best way to calm one self ((:
take care love.

Dee Ayesha's Celeb.

Finally, we had sometime to celebrate Dee Ayesha’s birthday due to not only our busy schedule but her being busy at work.Sheesh!

Happy birthday to you and may you enjoy your day though it was really simple.
Qiji- Starbucks-Movie, Singh is King- Arab Street, Al Majlis.
That’s how it sums up our day. I’ve got no words to say anymore and let’s take a peek into our very own “berangan” pictures, ha-ha!

Dress Code: PINK

& i swear, i hate sheesha-ing! Not that i dont like the taste nor smell but thanks to my bad breathing airway, i am just afraid to try more of it. I wouldnt want to risk my life, you see.

take care love.