Memoirs;30 January 2008

Class Chalet turn out to be a disasterous nightmare for all of us. In the beginning, everyone had fun playing water bombs,playing card games&chit-chatting. But in just a blink of eye, Mr Tan injured his wrist. He accidentally hit the glass panel of the sliding door& thus his wrist had a huge and deep cut. Oh god,i couldnt believe my eyes upon looking at it. So yeah,everything was a failure due to this incident.However, they do barbequed some chickens for us since we were super hungry.&& no pictures are taken due to the same reason.
Well, i reached home around 2+am& had some scoldings from Abah. I tried explaining but to no avail. So yeah, i guess he is still angry with me :(
~Im sorry as i dont mean it at all! Wish he is very understanding person!

I enjoyed looking at the stars which decorates the blank black sky.It is just sooo beautiful& how i wish that special someone is there to share the moment with me. Like com'on,dream on! hahaha I dont know what am I really feeling right now.Love? just a crush or wat? Totally confused like how i am always :( So god, please help me in anything i do. Please guide me safe!

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;29 January 2008

~ Sparkles
Ohh so-so boring day as many of my collegues taken an off day today. Sexy Alexy,Shawney Babey, Chrisy bro& Chuan Wei Wei are being missed :D A day w/out you guys is such a bore for me. See you gays tommorow *evil grin* We'll continue our so called "gay talk!"

PST: Never tought i would be that close with my collegues !

I've not applied for the army thingy& redeem my swensens $100 voucher.Oh no,thank you Zue'! *faggots* No,no actually thanks to my so tight working schedule. I've got no time for the applications, girlfriends&boyfriends, lovelies& life.Sorry girlfriends&boyfriends! I''l make sure that i will attend the class chalet at Aloha Loyang tommorow! Praying hard that my full-timer will let me off early :)

Bad day. Had an argument with Dee Noreen. Err,i dont blame any party for this. Its just a total misunderstanding,i think.& I had a bad-bad diarrhoea! Arrgg~

Hehe,i love the stars.Sparkling real nice out there& i've been counting them! Err, around 20+ (estimate) Stars fascinates me& so does the moon. What should i say "Masha-allah!"

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;28 January 2008

27 January 2008;

Had a great time with my lovelies! We had a delicious Hi-tea with famous Suria celebrities (: Totally enjoying ourselves with the scrumtious food& camwhoring sessions with the celebs.

Btw,we had our Hi-tea at Lagunsari Restaurant! Thanks Ammi for the treat :D

Pictures:

[Mami Zaleha Hameed :D Look super young still!][Adi Rahman& me! Hot hunk! Wish my future husband looks like him*sighing*][Ammi& him :) ][That funny host!]

Headed to Parkway Parade& had our shopping. Well, we bought a splendid smart shirt for Iskandar Bhai from TOPSHOP as his birthday is around the corner.He will be wearing it during our Family dinner day.

[People says that we are the look alike Shah's blood ! ]

&& most importantly i bought a new camera for myself! Wee~ Finally i've got a new one& thus, its easier for me to camwhore! Hahaha! Well,its new to me& yeah it takes time to study it in a greater detail.

28 January 2008;

Working full shift :D Super tiring but yet, Im still awake at this hour. Had a great time with my fellow collegues! love you people :)

love,

ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;26 January 2008

~Polytechnic Courses!
Finally decided on the courses i wanted to go.Ended everything exactly at 4am! Im so physically fatigue :( Well, here's all the 12 courses that i've choosen!
1) Business Studies-TP *15points
2) Business Studies-NP *13 points
3) Psychology Studies-TP *-New course-
4) Banking& Financial Services-NP *11points
5) Human Resource Management with psychology-NP *-New course-
6) Communication&Media Management-TP *11 points
7) Hospitality& Tourism Management-TP *11 points.
8) Sports& Wellness Management-NYP *17 points
9) Aviation Management& Services-TP *11 points
10) Dental Hygiene& Therapy-NYP *13 points
11) Food Science-NYP * 16 points
12) Applied Food Science& Nutrition-TP *15 points

Hopefully i got my first choice! Amin (:
love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;24 January 2008

Unexpected/Miracles~
My heart palpitated real fast as I reached the school gate& my palms turn wet. Once i reached,i asked Ms Nawal about my result& thank god,she told me that i pass my English! There goes my result slip.Tears started to role down my cheeks as i look at my satisfying result! I couldnt believe my eyes& i started to hug& kiss my mum,sis& Ziiya.Well,im so touched by my ammi.She actually cried upon hearing the good news!&not forgetting,my lovedones actually congratulate me! Thanks lovelies<3>
Finally,i've made it! I've made my parents proud of me. See,who says Normal Academic student is hopeless? I've proved them wrong. Doesnt mean your in the express stream, you are eligible to get better grades.I love Allah! Thank you for everything you've given me,the miracles that i've deserve! Only he knows what im feeling& i knew he loves me too (:
The most significant improvement i've made is to score as well as the express stream.I dont need to be embarrassed with anyone nor being looked down by others.
& the happiest moment is to know that my Bessyfrens passed their O levels& made it to a polytechnic! Congratulation :D
Credits& a warm-thank you to this people who played a significant role in my life: Lovely family, Shahul,Irfan Khan,Bessyfrens,Classmates,Collegues,Schoolmates,Nadiah,Mokhsein,Shafee,
Yan,Sabrina,Hazriana,Terri& more! Love you :D
My achievements:
L1R4:11 L1R5:14 CCA:A2
English Language: B3
Pure Literature in English: A2
Combined Humanities: B3
Mathematics: B3
Additional Mathematics: B3
Science: A1
Malay: A2

I love Allah& so does he loves me :)
Oh well,24th January 2008 is a red letter day for me!
love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;24 January 2008

The calling~
It was a steel grey morning and the air was light& chilly. The tought of the upcoming result haunted me throughout the night.I brought the blanket closer to me as i cuddle my soft toy, mickey mouse,hoping that i could just share my feelings to it. Yesterday,the tought of it is cleared away by Shahul but now,as it gets closer to the time,im getting worried sick about it! "How will i fair? Will i pass my english language? What if i dont get distinction for my Amaths?" All this questions lingered in my mind till now.
Waking up early in an attempt to fast and thus prayed solat Subuh but now,i couldnt sleep again. My mind is filled with undesirable thoughts! Tears kept rolling down my cheek as I tought about my parents. I wont want to disappoint them! They ever told me that they know how hard i've studied for the exams& if i dont get good points,that means it was not meant to be my luck. I cried upon remeniscing what they told me.Even i message Miss Nawal,my Amaths teacher, today morning to say sorry if i dont get my distinction. & Im so touched by her reply :) If anyone knows me really well,they would know how hard i've studied for my O levels. & if god is fair& loving enough, he would give me the miracles that i deserved!
In less then 7 hrs,the result is released. Ammi& Dee Ayesha are tagging along. Every family members and dear friends actually wish me luck& I hope that the lucky charm they gave me will work! I wont want to disappoint them either.My parents' prayers are so significant to me =)
I would blog tonight if i get good result! Amin.
Bismilla hirahmannirahim!~

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;23 January 2008

Anticipation~
The day started well, got moody in the afternoon till evening and ended happy at night. I see the stars shining bright, amongst the grey clouds. Whenever i look at the stars,they gave me the sense of hope.The moon's full, i don't think many people realised that. Life's too fast, everything just past through us in a blink. & finally,the day have arrived.O level result will be announced tommorow at 2pm. Im feeling kind of tensed up by it& hoping for the best! However,the tension that im feeling is now gone.Thanks to Shahul who made my day a wonderful&happy one. With his stupid jokes,horny&funny videos,his photos& words of wisdoms,really helping me to calm myself down.Im super thankful to you! Your such a super great friend& i love you! Woo~ I have less then 12 more hours for my fate to be decided by god.Only he knows what's going to happen.& so ya,if he loves me,i know he will give me the best that he could! Amin.I love you, Allah!
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"I guess Im feeling jealous about someone who caught his attention. I think,im forgetting it like seriously. Neither do i want to repeat the past nor i want to feel the same pain i've went through.Dear god,please help me in everything i do!"

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;22 January 2008

Tense moment~

Happy birthday dear Syeerah! May god bless you~ & its unfair because she can now hv her car license! legal 18yrs old.

1 MORE day to the most memoable day.A day when my fate is decided by him. I couldnt do anything else but to pray for the best! Just give me that miracle.i really need it dear Allah! Amin.

This sunday Im gonna have Hi-tea with my lovedones.Wee~ Hopefully its fun!

&& i think Im missing someone.Hehe :D

love,

ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 21 January 2008

Nerve Wrecking~
24th is the confirm date for the release of O level result! Oh no,what fire is in my ear? Can all this be true? For now,i can only rely on god for my future.Please god,give the miracles that i deserve from you,*Wishing*.
Scrumptious looking chocolates i've bought from Marks& Spencer.Yummy! Err,maybe because i was fasting& i crave for anything that i see,Oh my!
Zyedan is such a smarty lil' cute boy.He is just too smart for his age! XOXO~ strawberry milk boy,Haha!
love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 20 January 2008

Merely busy working.Doing full-shift everytyme! I like lah sey.Yes,I know,its kindda no life kind of thing.But its ok,im earning! Weee~~
Spending my time reading Irfan Khan's blog.Yeahh,your true.Its kindda sad but the fact is,i dont cry!Hohoho!
Woo,I've got an off day on this Sunday.Like finally! Gonna have Hi-tea with my lovedones.Ammi's paying for us,so its kindda free! Maybe gonna use that day to shop with her.Letting her buy anything she wants because Im paying for it!
&& Oh no, Results!! Anytime it can be released.Oh god,you know what i've always prayed for.Please please,help me dear Allah! Love you~
love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 19 January 2008

18 January 2008;
Whole day at work& there's nothing special going on.
But hey,chatting with him just makes me happy =) & sadly,i cried when people reminds me of the result day.Please god,help me! Amin.

19 January 2008;
Early in the morning,stupid bus driver get on my nerve.He retained my ez-link card for no reason! I was super irritated by him.Vulgarities flew out from my mouth like idioms.Now,i've got no ez-link card& all thanks to him. Followed by my pay day today. Surprisingly,the money was not banked into my account.I wonder why.Everyone has their pay except for me& some others.Oh,such a disaster! Well,i was given permission to leave early today.So bought some snacks home.& spent my night with my family! Zyedan made my day =) We had some dancing moments together!Weee~~

I've got no idea how many tymes i have said this but seriously,please help me god! I really need your blessings& miracles.Amin!

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 17 January 2008

Flare up anger~
Well,today's my off day.So i plan to go to Ngee Ann Poly open house& yeah, as usual its cancelled. That will surely happen& i hate it.Im kindda person who hates last minute thingy.So yeah, the cancelling of plan just turn off my mood.That is the reason why i hate to go out with such person/people.&& late comers! Like Hello, I've got no time in this world to wait for you! Buggers! So yeah,when out to Bugis to do some shopping& catch a hindi movie:Welcome. Thankx to this movie,i gain back my laughters.The movie is super hilarious!
Hmm,Is it bad to have pent up anger in me? Am I that hot-tempered? But hey,i've got a reason why i feel that way,right? If you people be considerate enough,i wont be acting that kindda way.Please understand& stop irritating me with the super childish acts.It totally annoys me!
& yeah,its better to go shopping alone rather then hearing 'some' people's complaining! Like hello,can you just shut up?! Irritating pest!!

Devil in me says; ZUE',stop dreaming.Nothing gonna happen between you&him.Do you wanna repeat the past? Neither you nor him will ever confess the love. So please,just forget it! =(
3 MORE DAYS TO PAY DAY!- RICH RICh RIch Rich rich!
7/8 MORE DAYS TO O LEVEL RESULT!-Oh god, i need your blessings!

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;15 January 2008

~Gelare Ice Cream.
Morning shift today! So yeah,Ashwini& me are craving for ice cream. Ice cream with waffle cream,Yummy! Totally a sweet delight! Ok,i know i've gain 1kg, =(
I've got to slim down.But, how?! Damn it!
3rd Febuary 2008; Well,I cant wait for the Family Reunion dinner! Woohoo,Im gonna treat everyone! Actually its a dinner cum birthday party. Iskandar Bhai's bdae is on 3rd Feb together with Mammi Nachak(Dad's eldest sis),Bubu Faridah's 31th Jan& Zyedan's 6 Feb.& yeah, i wont forget my late beloved mammi Nachak's(Ammi's elder sis)bdae on the 2nd Feb.Happy Advance Bdae everyone! Love my lovelies! take care (:

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;14 January 2008

~Precious Little Wish
21th of January 2008 is the release of O level result? Oh no! I couldn’t believe my ears upon hearing this fearful news. Nobody understands how i feel except for god. Today, I cried infront of my parents. I told them about the upcoming result& out of a sudden, I cried. I wish i won’t upset them, amin. Well, I’m so fortunate to have parents like them. They encourage me! Please pray hard for me Abah&Ammi! Love you (:
Oh god,
Your the almighty, fair& loving. Please grant me this precious little wish! You know that I've work hard for it, done my best& even pray to you. & now, i could only leave it to you to decide my fate. If your fair enough, grant me those miracles like you use to give. You know me very well. I don’t boast/brag about the exams& be kind enough to give me the best result that i deserve! This is my future &i want my parents to share it with me. So dear god, please do grant me this wish, Amin!
I BELIEVE GOD IS THERE FOR ME!
6 DAYS TO PAY DAY!
LESS/MORE THEN 7 DAYS TO O LEVEL RESULT!
love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs;13 January 2008

* Laughing moments.
Funny incident! I brought home a plastic bag which totally does not belong to me. The security guard must have given me the wrong one& smart of me not to check it first. Actually, i urgently need the toilet& so i went w/out checking on the plastic bag. Haha! Dumb ass :D Hopefully the person is kind enough to bring it back to me. It contains my dad's clothes which i bought it for him.It was from my pay, so yeah,i treat him! Oh God,i hope that i get back my stuffs! Please,amin! & thnx Abah for laughing at my stupidity! HAHA :D

7 MORE DAYS > PAY DAY!

15 DAYS > O LEVEL RESULT <15 DAYS

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 12 January 2008

10 January 2008;

Doing the old same stuff, working. Kindda boring but i love it! ok, i know im weird. Oh well, today Alex& other collegues had their off day. & yeah, they came to bully& mess everything up! Im so gonna revenge on them! HAHA :D

11 January 2008;

Woo~ Happy day with lovely people! So wake up early in the morning to get dress w/out putting on any make-up.& yeah, i look stupid i think! haha. So had my eyebrows thread& underarm waxing! Ohh~ I feel soo CLEAN! HEAVEN :D Ok,we're super late for the open house. Im sorry Sha, but i was late for the performance. Well, everything still went on as normal. Met many old friends.& guess what? I met my own sis,Dee Ayesha, at TP with Irfan. We had so much fun together.Later on, went to Robinsons to buy somethings for Abah* He likes it, but the size is too big. Oh well, he has loss weight!*Ok, i didnt miss my revenge for that day. Hmm, coincidently,i met Shahul at City Hall Mrt. Though we didnt get to meet at TP,we did meet each other somewhere else. & yeah, the night is still young. We headed to BlackJack for some dancing! Of cos, no drink! We know our limits,people! Dancing all day w/out noticing the tyme.So yeah, we rush home.HAHA! & Abah was super angry as we reached home around 1+am. Opps, sorry Dad!

12 January 2008;

Morning Shift! Yeah! Had my lunch with Mr Supervisor,Ganesan. He bought me Milo, thnx! & ok sadly to say, Jam& Hop is a failure. I ended up going to my brother's house to meet Zyedan. After so long i didnt meet him& yeah, when there is a chance, why not yeah.Tommorow is a long day for me at work.Nites Lovelies!

love,

ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 9 January 2008

09 January 2008;
Simply feeling rather physically fatigue. Oh my, i didnt get an off tommorow :( So yeah, i can only go for the open house on Friday. So whats my plan for Friday& Saturday: In the morning, gotta work up early to go to the beauty parlour (eyebrow/face threading).Then later on headed to Temasek Poly for the open house.& at night, Dee Noreen wanna do some shopping with me. Wow, i gotta buy somethings.I miss shopping! Maybe later at night, i go for waxing! I seriously need to do waxing!! Hahaha, urgently! So, on saturday its a confirm that im doing morning shift& hurriedly go home to get myself ready for the Jam& Hop! Not going to miss it :D Hope to see many people there!

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 8 January 2008

~ Pangs of Anger.
8 January 2008;
Extremely filled with anger! Today is just a bad day for me. Many people makes me angry! Well, my day started off good& happy. But, afterwards it wen soo wrong! Firstly, im angry with the Robinsons supervisor who kept complaining about many of the promoters! He just totally pissed me off.For god sake, we're no more a student! Please treat us like one,dumbass! Then later on had my lunch with Mira& a boy( not so sure what's his name). He just spoil my dinner time with his super irritating& non-funny jokes which are related to my race,religion& gender. Super discrimination! & okey, the worst problem that not only im facing, is the off days. Actually, my boss let everyone go for the Poly Open houses on Friday.& at a last minute, she told us that she cant find any replacement& have to break us up! Walau, we're super angry. The whole day we're angry& you know, Mira& me just started bursting into tears. Whenever we get angry, we just burst out crying. Oh well, i found a solution& hope it works! Please god, you gotta help me!! AMIN (:
Pst: Mr Supervisor didnt talk/say hi to me! How come? I wonder..

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 7 January 2008

~ Future& Plans.
Dear Diary;
Nothing interesting today. Sales in Robinsons are very slow! Chit-Chatting with my lovely collegues all day (: Fasting is tiring with the cold weather& Im full!
Well, Im counting on the days to my future, O level results. Im super afraid of it& just praying hard that god will sent me some miracles like he did before.Amin! Oh god, you know how important it is to me& please help me! I know in order to get what i wanted,i have to do my best& work hard for it& just let you decide for the outcome! I've done everything& now, its all up to you,dear Allah!- Please dont disappoint me.
So hmm, my pay day is coming. Many things i've to do& buy! Let me list it out :
1) My parents = $100/person.
2) Family Treat = $ 200+
3) Johor Bahru shopping = $ 150
4) Singapore shopping = $100+
- Brown& grey skinny jeans. ~$38
- Gym's clothing.~ $50
- Camera (Cybershot)~ $500+
- Apple/Vaio Lappy~ $2000
- Body Shop Cranberry's shimmering lotion/Perfumes. ~ $100
- Pairs of beautiful tops.~ $80
- Waxing/threading (Beautician)~ $50
& more.

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 6 January 2008

- Clone?
5 January 2008;
I found a clone of mine? Err, i dont think so. Why people always mistaken me with that new girl? Haha, funny! Just because he bunned-up her hair,from the back view, she look like me? nonsense! I totally dont think we look alike! Oh yeah, by the way her name is Ashwini! nice girl :) just like me.* thick-skin* Even she think we dont look alike! But the weird part is many people mistook her as me& vice versa. No, no i dont wanna see any clone of mine :(
Today's dinner break was fun! Had my break with the Indian supervisor,Ganeshan. Super nice man! & yeah, that funny auntie's raping incident! Fcuking funny!! & yeah Mr Supervisor call me Miss Maggie girl! and he said " No wonder soo skinny!" Not a compliment at all! haha
6 January 2008;
Full-time again! Super tiring :( But nah, its okey, that means i earn more,hehe! Had my lunch& dinner break with Alex& Mira. So, we ate Nasi Ayam Penyet for lunch.,it taste ok. I think Changi Village is nicer (: Oh well,i crack everyone up with my dirty/non-dirty jokes& nonsense. That's my daily routine. Im happy when i see everyone happy too! Oh ya, im soo pampered by Mr supervisor! He gave me chocolates& crackers.& hell ya, i ate alot today! No no, not to worry! Im going for a diet tommorow! I mean fasting, my dear.
Pst; Oh god, Please help me. Amin !
take care, lovelies.

love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 4 January 2008

* Horror !
Dear Diary;
Yay! I had a pretty long sleep today (: I guess i've recharged the batteries in me.
Oh well,I was woken up in a nerve-wreaking way. My smarty lovely sister on the music player& went off to school.& thanx to her that the CD player change into a new cd automatically! The worst part is the Cd player played a ghost movie.To my horror, i was awaken by a loud ghostly scream! Oh my,my heart palpilated real fast! But this isnt the first time.Before this, went i was about to dress myself up to work, the CD player did the same thing! oh god, i was horrified! & for now, i've taken out the CD from the player. Never want it to happen again :(
So well, I spent my day by watching new hindi movies: Saawariya& Chakde. I love Chakde! Saawariya is kindda disappointing to me.Then later on at night Mira came to insert some new hindi songs to her mp3 player. Ok the funny part is Mira dance w/out realising my dad was there! Haha,and the slipper-bus incident, oh no,it was fcking funny! BTW, have you ever ride on a motorbike w/out your helmet on in Singapore? Haha,i did that today! Dee Ayesha ride me back home from the 358's bustop w/out any helmet on. Super cool! Everyone was looking but who cares =P Back home & again,Dee ayesha& me watch a malay horror movie: Jangan Pandang Belakang! Everything today is related to horror movies!
Tomorrow gonna be a tiring day for me. I've got to wake up early in the morning for the Scholarship ceremony& then headed back to work. Never gonna miss this year scholarship ceremony like how i did last year. Stupid,i lost the money last year! My hardwork are now repaid back again (:
Hey hey, Im happy for NCL! Congrats my bestfren :) ( only i know why.)
& btw, do i look different wen i tie& untie my hair? A'riff(colleague) think so!
Oh ya, Aizat( colleague) was the 2nd person who says that i look like Jaclyn Victor! Haha, a good compliment but but seriously, she is way prettier then me.
Goodnite!

Am I in love? Oh my, never wanna repeat the past..
love,
ZUBEIDAA

Memoirs; 3 January 2008

GOODBYE 2007!

Dear Diary,

Been a hectic weeks for me& finally,i got to rest! I was given an off day tommoro :) Well,i did not have the chance to blog during the new year. Busy working& spending tyme with my lovelies!

2007 has finally ended. There is a mixed of emotions; happy,sad& poignant feelings. Its a year which is filled with tears& joy. Never thought it would be this way.

As there is a saying; Life is full of ups and downs. Its just seems like fixing an incomplete puzzle. I felt every single feeling;gay,disappointment,cupid's arrow piercing& tensed due to the major examinations.

Oh well,this year O level examinations haunted me day& night. But i went through it with alot of courage& confidence. I've been preparing painstakingly for this major examinations& hoping for the best outcome. I've also been praying fervently so that Allah will blessed me with good results! Amin.

End of May,wasnt my lucky month.Yeah, love is a failure for me. But well,i dont blame any party for this.Im just totally over it! no worries. But one thing i've regretted in life. I just wanna say sorry to another party for hurting him so much. Its just a ploy,im sorry. Well,its over& now,I have that ambivalence feeling.Oh god,please help me. Is that really love? Show me the way, i will just appreciate your help.

Im missing everyone who is dear to me, my classmates! Oh my,wish we're not seperated. i cant bare to live w/out them :( Btw, All the best for O level Result! May everyone made it to a great future!

Lastly, I pray that year 2008 gonna be a wonderful year. May i be bless with good fortune, happiness,love& confidence! By mustering my courage,may i succeed in venturing to a brand new year. May bygones be bygones. Lets start afresh!

TOODLES ",)

love,

ZUBEIDAA