20TH BIRTHDAY, CASTILOOO!

( This picture is exactly a year ago-on your big day)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CASTILLO PAUL ADOLPH!

Let the god decorate each golden ray of the sun reaching this kind soul with wishes of success, happiness and prosperity. You have been the bestest bestfriend ever because you’re always there to hear me out and even there to share my joy! Our friendship, I’ll definitely treasure! May your day be as wonderful as the person you are! No matter how old you’re getting, you’ll always be that young boy whom I know!

P/S: Really hope to catch up with you really soon!

My days in school are such a bore without you.

Takecare love.

Another day has gone. Goodbye Mikaeel Jackson. God Bless you!

Even though he’s not someone I’ve crazily fallen for, I’m still his big fan who grew up listening to his songs. His departure has brought tears all over the world including me and I believe the world has lost one of the greats but never will his music die together.

Mikaeel Jackson, Allah loves you more and alhamdulillah, you’re never too late.

P/S: If there’s one thing I could steal from him, it would be definitely be his talents ((:

For god, only gives it especially for him. Lucky soul!

And you, for whom created this song (You’re not alone), it really means a thousand words. Though I know you’ve departed from this world, everyone’s never alone because you’re here always.

I love you Mikaeel Jackson ((:

:)) Good Holidayyyyy!

19 June 2009;

Sentosa was a blast together with the Indians! Really had a great time ((:

20 June 2009;

Mani Production- Dreams do come true :) and Denes, you acted really well!

Sisters gone crazy- I love my Bu!

21 June 2009;

Lovely Deera ( Shanti's Beauty Parlour/Downtown East)

22 June 2009;

CPF Building/University Campus/Millenia Towers/Mustafa Centre together with my women- Bu Ayesha, Dee Noreen& Ammi!

School's starting! Oh dear, I'm such a bum to go school later =(

takecare love.

HEADACHE,

Oh my god, headache is back!
I’m like sweating, similarly to a pig.
I’m like tossing, similarly to a coin.
I’m like swearing, just similarly how I love to say “FUCK”!

God, please help me.
I need some panadols to kill this!

takecare love.

Camwhores,

Someone once said that I wouldn’t understand the feeling of being heartbroken because I’m still immature/ I don’t like the person/ I don’t understand the meaning of love/ what not. You’re wrong to judge me that way because you don’t understand. To me, I’ve lost someone I really love the most permanently and nothing beats the pain I went through because she’s everything to me.

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Oh wells, I’m rotting at home and I resulted to camwhoring. Yes, I know that’s so me. And yes, someone just don’t like me taking a lot of pictures of myself thinking that by taking pictures of yourself, your life span will be shorten. I just don’t believe in this but thanks, I know you love me. Hahaha!


Since today Gerekkakis has cancelled the outing plan, I’m left all rotting at home AGAIN! But luckily, I’ve decided to come over my nieces and nephews house to have some fun together! ((: I love them to the maximum!

Okays, time to bathe!
I’m off, chow chin chow! Lovessss!
Takecare love.

Everyday love,

A well spent Monday together with my lovely sisters and Dan Shah over at Arnold. We ate too much even until now I’m still full of chickens! HAHA! :)

I love my everyday now as it is.

( Zalikha, Zue', Alisa, Arun, Deen, Kari)

Last Friday, I had my CCA Awards over at TCC, Temasek Polytechnic. It’s really an honour and I’m glad to say that was my very first award in polytechnic. Plus, it’s really nice to receive it together with my favourite Indians :)

(The ceremony was too boring that we camwhored)

(Zalikha, Ammi, Zalikha's mom and me)

(Bu Ayesha, Ammi and Dan Shah attended the ceremony)

I danced my Saturday away. This isn’t any normal Saturday but it was just so prestigious. We had an audition for our upcoming show in December for all 4 genres (Modern Contemparary, Hip hop and Bharata Natyam and the best BOLLYWOOD!) I’m hoping to be in at least 2 of the genres and one should be BOLLYWOOD babey! ((:

Oh yes, really had a great time with Wani and Denes after dance. We laughed too much and my line is really CLASSIC! LOL! “FUCK YOU!”

Nothing can beat my Sunday. It’s all about sleeping and watching movie at home. I just love it because I can’t deny that I missed home so much. What’s more? Briyani I had at home was really AWESOME ((:

I shall hit my softy and comfy bed now.

Till then, goodnights lovelies!

P/S: Oh my god, I watched Rabne Bana Di Jodi again and it makes me fall in love, tsk! With every single moment in that movie! Okay, I know I’m so into my fantasy world! I’ll stop!

Takecare love.

FAILS,

Almost! Perhaps it isn’t my luck this time. I pray too little for something I really want. That’s really a big mistake I’ve done. I’ve decided to change for the better. Seriously, I’ve got to change. But this failure is never going to discourage me from doing better.

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Oh wells, I’ve gotten some pictures from dearest Wani’s FB. Some pictures that I would love to share because those “moments” does sent some tingling feeling down my spine especially with Sufri’s good expression and acting. Okay, after seeing this you will understand to why I’ve actually fallen for him at that very moment. LOL! No worries, that happens at that very moment only and nothing more.

Actually you should experience it yourself, seriously.

( the whole cast + some others)

Anyways, I’ve got to agree to Ammi and Bu Ayesha that Zyeheen got very limited photos of himself unlike Zyedan. So, I’ve decided to snap more pictures of him and surprisingly, he appears to be really photogenic just like his aunties, right? HAHA! Have a look at it!

HAHAHAHAHA! OKAY, ENOUGH!
OFF TO BED, BABEY!

takecare love.

NERVOUS!!

( Dont ask me why I put this picture because I've got no reason to it)

Oh god, please bless me through. I’m terribly worried for tomorrow. Even though I’ve practiced enough, I’ve got the feeling that I’ll not do well. I might fail for my very first time. Just give me the confidence, strength and the abilities to go through this difficult time. I’m counting on you ((:

P/S: So, are you my good luck charm?

takecare love.

Heeling,

4th June 2009;

Moments Concert was really an excellent one!

It’s really a new experience to the world of dance. I love the “LOVE” scene and because of that it makes me fallen for my dance instructor. LOL! Actually, I’m just in love with his character in that dance piece, nothing else. Everybody looks good and overall, I love my day. I’ve actually ended my exams with a good concert! YAY!

5th-6th June 2009;

CAMPING! I was really exhausted the whole 2 days of camp. I like the Night Adventure (:

7th June 2009;

Woke up really late today due to the tiring camp hours and get dressed to the funeral prayers of Bhai. I don’t know why but I cried while reciting the prayers. I was just looking at his family montage in the balcony while saying the prayers together with the rest and I cried silently. I just can’t believe that he had departed from this world. I really felt for your family a lot.

I just don’t understand why they are doing all this because I swear it isn’t helping them at all. You’re supposed to be encouraging and be there for them and not to lecture them for hours or countless time. And I’m very particular if that were to happen to me in the future. I don’t need your advices because I have my siblings who have the rights over me. I just don’t understand them. I’m sorry my dears to leave early because I couldn’t tolerate their nonsense but I’ll be there always for you, my dears and you know that ((:

(Wah sey, hot la tu, HAHA!)

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAHIRAN SAHUL HAMID!
MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU ALWAYS AND MAY YOU ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY TO THE FULLEST!
(I’m sorry for the late wish because I dozed off too early but nevertheless I wished you. That’s most important!)

Now, I’m really worried about 2 things.
Firstly, my Traffic Police test is coming. I’m not that prepared nor confident about passing it. I’m trying to build up my confidence by going through countless revisions. Bless me Allah!

Secondly, I had a mini conversation with my parents. They know I was really angry with my cousin sister and they tried to calm me down. I’m worried that my parents are very stress about anything relating to me so I asked Abah if his stress about anything. If I and my sister did anything wrong that his over-stressed about. But he said the only thing he got too stressed up of is just money. He said his worried on how he’s going to get money for our education, for house and anything else. But I’ve told him, once both of us are financially stable and are supported with a good job, you don’t have to worry much. I assured him! I really have to work hard for him, my mother and for my future.

After all, they are the once who went through a lot to grow and nurture me. And most importantly, I’m glad that I’ve gotten all their trust and I appreciated that. Atleast I hope for now I've made you proud for excelling in my studies!

Goodnight lovelies.
Takecare love.

FUMED WITH ANGER

I don’t understand them! I seem to lose respect for them with that kind of attitude. I don’t see the need for them to scold me in that kind of tone like as if I did something really bad. You don’t need to scold me like as if you’re my parents. Even my parents don’t do such things! I’m totally bothered with everything you’ve said though you felt sorry after saying it. Even if you claim you meant to advise me, it doesn’t make you have the authority to blame or accuse me of doing anything. It just pissed me off and I seriously hate all of you. Firstly, please bother about your own children or grandchildren before talking about us because really a no point for them to look “religious” by wearing the scarf but behaving immorally behind your backs. I just hate their presence.

Totally enamoured by you,

Oh my god, I'm enamoured.

SHIT! He blushes me always. Damn!

Oh wells, I’m off for camp! Anything important, do sent me a message yeah!

Will update you more especially the “Moments” Concert that I've just attended!

Oh gosh! Only god knows the feeling!

Till then, goodnite! ((:

Nuisance!

(I LOVE MY PARENTS!)

I don’t understand people sometimes. The fact that they love to judge people by its cover and always think highly of themselves without relating it to their close ones! It’s a little too much I think. I don’t understand to why be there a need to mind people’s business like as if they don’t need to look after their own personal things.

I’m lucky to gain trust from my own parents. They hate it when people talk about their children but I’m happy to hear that they know their children better than anyone else and believe us more than anyone else too.

My aunties and cousins are getting overboard, I believe. They don’t seem to bother about their own children or grandchildren and actually talk negatively about us. I don’t see the point of them talking negatively about us because their children or grandchildren are way worst then us though they are physically seen “religious”.

Issues:
1) Appearance wise
2) Clothing
3) Attitude
4) Education

Wearing fully covered clothing in Islam is strictly encouraged but I don’t see a point of wearing it if you portray a bad attitude or intention towards others. They may seem to look physically religious but what’s the point of having a boyfriend? Or have grudges towards others? Or insult others?

You don’t need to force people to be like you or to dress like you or to look like you because everyone has its own personality and rights. Even my parents don’t force us to wear scarf because they know we’re still young and the urge to wear it comes from inside or within you.

You may think your children or grandchildren looked poise and demure because they’re wearing the scarf as compared to some who don’t wear it but have you ever realised they’re just purely acting? At least, we wear what we want, make-up ourselves to look good and have a good education and future unlike them whom you worship to look demure and actually the fact that she/him has a boyfriend or portray a bad attitude.

And you please give some respect. I might be smaller then you by age but I’m you’re aunty. Don’t try to create good impression in everyone’s mindset because you’re just faking. I hate fakers and please, I don’t owe you a living. I might be too nice to everyone but one day if it’s getting overboard, I’ll burst out for sure. Don’t try me!

I’m glad that my parents agreed with me and trusted me much. I wouldn’t want to lose that trust and I’ll do anything to make them happy

(even being arranged for any marriage proposal) LOL!

P/S: Why bother what people say about you.

As long as you have your parents’ trust its good enough.

Anyways, 1 down 2 more to go. Mr Holiday please comes fast! And our specialisation result hasn’t been process due to some technical problem, lol! Results are only out by 8 June!

Oh god, hopefully I got into my first choice

(HUMAN RESOURCE MANAGEMENT& TOURISM& LEISURE MANAGEMENT).

Amin

takecare love.

SUNBURNTS =(

I’m phobia to sun for now after getting myself badly burnt yesterday! I felt like a roasted chicken and even my NPCC days back then wasn’t this bad! I was extremely appalled to see my body’s condition. When I looked at my body, it seems like I’m wearing my top still because of those sunburnt lines. I’m terribly sad and worried that it won’t go away. My attempt of getting back my baby skin colour has gone to waste! I’m back to those days where I love spending my time under the sun, argh!

(those days when I was a baby!)
You must be wondering how I got those burns, right? Some thought I went for sun-tanning! Are you insane? Even those times I went for the beach party, I was running away from Mr Sun and get myself sheltered every time! Ha-Ha!

( Dancers with my prince charming :) Arvind in black (middle))

Anyways, it’s all because of the outdoor dance shoot I had. For once, I thought by joining dance will be more indoor but I was so wrong! Arvind decided on us to help him out in his upcoming movie and I’m extremely thankful to him for everything. His really a great person who really cares about his dancers and can never stop thanking us for helping him! We had the shoot from 8 in the morning to 6PM and that explains the tiredness and SUNBURNTS!!

From food to drinks to everything, he bought for us and we really appreciate it. It was indeed a great experience and I’m looking forward to more shootings because he loves us and decided to call us for his upcoming shoots! BUT this time I will come all prepared for as long as my skin is protected! I’ll assure that! Now, I’ve been using and buying new body whitening products to get back my skin at least, tsk!

Today’s the start of the mid-semester period and it was really a bad start! Managing Business System is not a good attempt by me because I’m too careless to misread the 15MARKS question! Oh damn it, how useless can I be! I feel like re-doing everything but it’s just too late! But I really hope for a better result for my other 2 modules :)

takecare love.